Not Enough Flowers.

OKAY so I wanna say sorry to the 7-8 people who view my blog that I haven't posted in a while. I guess I have a lot going on in my life, yet nothing I can explain. Whether it's a daydream or trying to pretend that the alarm doesn't ring at 5:30, I'm dreaming about going far away from this place. I have to go there by going down to play shows for the friends down under, the ones who don't respond when I make a mistake. I come to do this because I have to go without the love I have outside of school, therefore I must escape to a place that's physically here, but emotionally somewhere else. Somewhere far away from this place I live in, where people from far away worlds are so much closer. I'm literally sustaining myself on prayers that feel like they're never answered but in riddles. I feel like my two cents are worth negative 20 in the world that doesn't seem so temporary, I drop a line but people expect me to bite it myself. So today I shall ask the world to grow some more sunflowers.
Love,
Makaila.

Some updates... N' stuff

So this summer has been pretty interesting, some things sad, but most has been good... My dear friend/sister Stazi went to Russia for most of the summer. She came back with some cool stories, pictures, some Motryoshka dolls, and even her Russian grandmother! The other day we went to the Denver Aquarium, and after went to the 16th Street Mall. But the time that I wasn't spending with her I was spending some solitary intellectual time going for walks, bike rides, libraries, music and writing. While hanging out with Stazi we agreed that "imperfection is perfection". We're both very interested in Eastern philosophy such as philosophies from Buddhism, Hinduism, Jainism etc... It makes me feel immense sorrow for the people, especially the women and girls, who think that "perfection" is the only thing to strive for. Skinniness, makeup, hair... Everything. But (insert your higher being here) only wants the best for you and always thinks you're beautiful the way you are. And that makes me feel good! :)

What's on my mind.

I love my iPod. I love to listen to it when I run and ride my bike. But sometimes I just like to run and bike without music. I just like to listen to my heavy breathing and the wind teasing my hair or the birds singing and chirping back and forth in conversation. I love to watch people. They're all so interesting. The little things they do, their interests, even their voice or laugh. Are we "all living in Amerika"? I think other societies are becoming Americanized. Because Amerika is wunderbar! In actuality it really is, but does the world need to be just like America? No I say NO! There are certain aspects of American society that I like such as freedom of speech and religion, and the ever so moving environmental and equal rights movements, but other societies have their advantages too. I especially admire Eastern society because of their wisdom with age and their belief in non-violence and kindness. Yeah. It's random.

Joy!

One thing I have found in our society today is the fact that people find joy mainly in their iPod, television, cellphone, and Nintendo DS I reckon... Ha! I also find joy in my iPod, but why can't people play music instead of listening to it? Why can't they take a hike, a walk, a bike ride? I think we should take a stand. I think we should change Western society into the principles of the hard working generation that our grandparents grew up in. I think we shouldn't focus and worry so much about getting old, because age is wisdom. Age is knowledge. We shouldn't care how skinny we are, because

Family so far...

So my family has been having some issues, yet things are falling into place. Grandma J's death was a blessing although us mortals think it's so bad for us because we've lost someone important. I know all too well that Grandma J was a great woman, and it will be a great struggle to get over things, but I know that now she can see. And now she can hear. And now she is with Grandpa Johnson, who may just be hiding from her... :) You hear so many tradgedies on the news and small talk. And you never think it will happen to you. But when it does, it really changes you, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. Oh how excited I am to take finals when I get home... JOY! Well, I think it's time for bed soon, so goodbye world, goodbye moon, and goodbye stress for at LEAST 9 hours. Haha

Reality.

What is "real" in nature? I don't really think it's a matter of "reality", but in perspective. For example; suburbs such as in Highlands Ranch don't have what I'd consider "Nature". Sure, there's trees and grass and such, but they were put there by human hands. Nature to me, is well... Natural. Sod and woodchips... Not natural. Reason 1 I hate Highlands Ranch: NOT NATURAL. Yet, I find infinite amounts of joy while watching a mom and her child swing at the park, and having real fun. Reason 2 I hate Highlands Ranch: EVERYONE SMOKES POT. That's really not real fun. I get high on life! Yeah!! Rambles schmambles... Elipsis elipsis.

Just some random thoughts!

So I officially find the game "hacky sack" quite dumb. When I eat lunch in the 300's, there is a group of overly loud boys who play hacky sack. I can't really look at them the same, because they are just being kinda... Well... We can say, a little stupid. Maybe not stupid as in "uneducated", but they just act dumb. But can I expect more from teenage male species? I think not. Hmm... Have you ever thought that leaves may not like it when you step on them? I almost stepped on one last week to feel and hear the CRUNCH that it makes under my feet, and the wind swept it away a little farther as to say "could you spare me this one?". So I officially try to not step on leaves anymore. But since Denver's weather is being a little "irregular", I might step on one on accident... Woops! I heart rambling!! It's pretty much my mind on a Blogger document in a sense...

Hmm...

So the reason I haven't blogged for a while is because I really don't have anything to talk about. I recently had a birthday, overall it was pretty fun, my friends came over and we pretty much laughed so hard our heads hurt afterwards. I guess I'm looking for a job... But I'm simply not old enough to work at Vitamin Cottage, and Tattered Cover is simply not hiring. I don't want to work at a place where I have to wear a uniform, but I realize that being 15, I probably don't have much of a choice. Hmm... Library? Now I'm rambling. But it's a blog. An online rambling page. It's Spring Break, and on the sunny days, when Denver weather is not being Bipolar, I have been riding my bike a lot, and going to the park to write poetry. I seem to have a bad case of writer's block though... Hm... I thought didn't have a lot to write about. Guess I did. Well if you want me to blog more, give me some ideas of something you want to hear. Holla!

My goals in life #2

1. Go to Nepal to meditate with the Dalai Lama
2. Go to third world countries and help little children
3.Learn Icelandic
4. Go to Iceland
5. Save animals and adopt some for my own!
6. Learn to play at least 5 instruments (I've already got 2!)
7. Keep going on vegetarian and hopefully go vegan.
8. Not let my family get to me.
9. Make a new friend every week.
10. Love what I do and make ends meet and then some!
11. Write in my blog more often
12. Be kind and loving to everyone
13. Be passionate, but not angry.
14. TRY please TRY not to fall asleep in class
15. Keep fit and healthy for time and all eternity.
16. Be open to all music
17. Just try not to dislike religion.