Family so far...

So my family has been having some issues, yet things are falling into place. Grandma J's death was a blessing although us mortals think it's so bad for us because we've lost someone important. I know all too well that Grandma J was a great woman, and it will be a great struggle to get over things, but I know that now she can see. And now she can hear. And now she is with Grandpa Johnson, who may just be hiding from her... :) You hear so many tradgedies on the news and small talk. And you never think it will happen to you. But when it does, it really changes you, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. Oh how excited I am to take finals when I get home... JOY! Well, I think it's time for bed soon, so goodbye world, goodbye moon, and goodbye stress for at LEAST 9 hours. Haha

Reality.

What is "real" in nature? I don't really think it's a matter of "reality", but in perspective. For example; suburbs such as in Highlands Ranch don't have what I'd consider "Nature". Sure, there's trees and grass and such, but they were put there by human hands. Nature to me, is well... Natural. Sod and woodchips... Not natural. Reason 1 I hate Highlands Ranch: NOT NATURAL. Yet, I find infinite amounts of joy while watching a mom and her child swing at the park, and having real fun. Reason 2 I hate Highlands Ranch: EVERYONE SMOKES POT. That's really not real fun. I get high on life! Yeah!! Rambles schmambles... Elipsis elipsis.

Just some random thoughts!

So I officially find the game "hacky sack" quite dumb. When I eat lunch in the 300's, there is a group of overly loud boys who play hacky sack. I can't really look at them the same, because they are just being kinda... Well... We can say, a little stupid. Maybe not stupid as in "uneducated", but they just act dumb. But can I expect more from teenage male species? I think not. Hmm... Have you ever thought that leaves may not like it when you step on them? I almost stepped on one last week to feel and hear the CRUNCH that it makes under my feet, and the wind swept it away a little farther as to say "could you spare me this one?". So I officially try to not step on leaves anymore. But since Denver's weather is being a little "irregular", I might step on one on accident... Woops! I heart rambling!! It's pretty much my mind on a Blogger document in a sense...

Hmm...

So the reason I haven't blogged for a while is because I really don't have anything to talk about. I recently had a birthday, overall it was pretty fun, my friends came over and we pretty much laughed so hard our heads hurt afterwards. I guess I'm looking for a job... But I'm simply not old enough to work at Vitamin Cottage, and Tattered Cover is simply not hiring. I don't want to work at a place where I have to wear a uniform, but I realize that being 15, I probably don't have much of a choice. Hmm... Library? Now I'm rambling. But it's a blog. An online rambling page. It's Spring Break, and on the sunny days, when Denver weather is not being Bipolar, I have been riding my bike a lot, and going to the park to write poetry. I seem to have a bad case of writer's block though... Hm... I thought didn't have a lot to write about. Guess I did. Well if you want me to blog more, give me some ideas of something you want to hear. Holla!

My goals in life #2

1. Go to Nepal to meditate with the Dalai Lama
2. Go to third world countries and help little children
3.Learn Icelandic
4. Go to Iceland
5. Save animals and adopt some for my own!
6. Learn to play at least 5 instruments (I've already got 2!)
7. Keep going on vegetarian and hopefully go vegan.
8. Not let my family get to me.
9. Make a new friend every week.
10. Love what I do and make ends meet and then some!
11. Write in my blog more often
12. Be kind and loving to everyone
13. Be passionate, but not angry.
14. TRY please TRY not to fall asleep in class
15. Keep fit and healthy for time and all eternity.
16. Be open to all music
17. Just try not to dislike religion.

I would most like to be a sunflower.

I would most like to be a sunflower,

taking in the sun's rays.

attached to the earth below me,

feeding from the soil.

Unlike a human I wear no shoes,

I have a simple life.

No cliques, no hate,

like peace I have roots.

people admire me,

while i'm being myself.

like a human I have trials

I await for the unforgiving winter.

But I always know that summer comes again.

things to do in life.

These are my goals in life, which if you notice, none of them include much work, although i understand work always comes with life.

1. live life to the fullest
2. get dreadlocks
3. play guitar around the campfire
4. live in the forest.
5. live and let live
6. love music
7. love people
8. love life
9. don't judge
10. live zen
11. love nature
12. be a free spirit.
13. use my car only when going long distances
14. create eco village with my neighbors
15. learn something new every day.
16. go barefoot when possible
17. don't use styrofoam
18. use plastic only when neccesary
19. recycle
20. be thankful for everything you have everyday.